Something I know about God is this: He doesn’t move away from us. We move away from him.
In the past year, I’ve been drowning in my circumstances. Many of them were beyond my control but I have still let them control me. I have been struggling with my past “failures” as if they have defined me. Now I’m looking to move back into the abundant life that God promises. The question is, when you are living in the dark, how do you find your way back into light?
When the curtains are drawn in my room at night, it is incredibly dark. There is not even light emanating from the alarm clock. The other night I woke up in the middle of the night for a glass of water. Instead of waking my husband by turning on a light, I groped around in the dark looking for the door into the bathroom. I walked slowly, shuffling my feet to try to keep from tripping on anything. My arms were out in front of me like a zombie’s so could feel the wall before I hit it.
I found the wall and with great confidence I put down my arms from in front of me to walk through the door to the bathroom for my cup of water–but the door was closed. I hit my face on the closed door, bonked my nose and made a big racket.
The noise woke my husband who quickly turned on the bedside light to see if I was okay. My nose hurt, but suddenly I was blinded by the light from the side of the bed. I closed my eyes to bring them back into the darkness they were used to.
It’s amazing how bright the light was in that dark room. During the day you can hardly tell if one of the bedside lights are on. But in the darkness, the light was blinding.
It made me realize that when you walk around in the dark, you get used to it. You start to think its normal to be in the dark. You may even forget what its like to walk in the light. Then, when the light comes on, you are blinded by it and do what you can to get yourself back into the dark.
So here is my question for you; are you used to walking in the dark over your grief and disappointments?
Are you bumping into walls?
What will you do to start moving back into the light of life?
